Isn't life really about knowing God? The one who created you? The one who put you into your body? The one who knows what the Divine Design actually looks like, what God designed for you filled with the highest levels of love and joy and pouring that into your life, your relationships with others instead of projecting your unresolved pain into others?
God is the one who knows you can be in the eye of any storm and still get through because that's how much God believes in you. God is also the one who sees what you do that is less than Godly. We all have shadow until we heal. It's from the program that we took in around us and can appear as control, manipulation, envy, jealousy, lust , greed and pride.
Know this truth, God asks us to love God with ALL of our hearts. The only way to do this is to move through our shadow because it is the opposite of God's love. God forgives us too when we forgive ourselves and others.
My journey with God truly began after my mother passed in 2021. It struck a shock wave in my life and business and my family. I then took space to just be. What people didn't know about me is that I was a very sensitive and tender soul who needed space to process life and heal. I didn't respond to reactive people well because it felt 10x to me as a sensitive soul, which I later learned by Carl Jung, is known as an empath. Empaths just don't feel their own emotions they feel everyone's around them.
I studied the mind (the unconscious) for a decade and attachments and addictions, including to people, places and things, lead to unmet needs including never looking at our own inner shadows, staying in toxic relationships and even being abused by others. Radical responsibility is necessary in this process of healing and that WE bully ourselves. If you grew up in a family that praised you for your accomplishments and to be 'perfect' it can create challenges when things don't work out in life. I realized I was SO hard on myself, wanting every part of life to be perfect until I realized that GOD designs us and molds us into Godly people through seasons of life.
In deep reflection, I discovered that I relied on my mother's 'life' and direction to believe I meant anything to the world. I bullied myself, let others bully me and this created cycles of deep pain and suffering. I attracted people into my life who never wanted me to succeed. Why? Because I wasn't willing to become it.
These truths that surfaced were false and God was determined to lead me out of it. God never wanted us to be bullied or bully ourselves. That's ungodly behaviour.
It's why God says listen. Soul maturity can happen through experiences with God because you won't listen AND the beauty of these cycles are they lead you to more of who God designed you to be, forgiving , way less reactive and controlling, filled with calm and peace, in control of your own life, powerfully leading you into destiny.
I remember sitting on the ground in grief and just saying God I don't know who I am anymore. Show me.
I also had asked for my life purpose to be revealed. I relied on my mother for validation and telling me who I should be and what I should do. I was filled with grief , unresolved family healing and then God took over.
It was October 2024 where I had a miracle with God. I was in Spain in a flood and experienced how the power of prayer saved my life , showing me that God was REAL!
In five minutes the storm stopped. It showed me blessings, kindness and love come from God and if we don't love ourselves enough, we will never know those blessings. I believe this is what God was showing me and is trying to show the world right now. I see you, I love you and I want to help you know who you are and who I designed you to become.
It takes courage to meet all of yourself. Mid-life is a catalyst time where God begins to reveal to us misalignments to our true God self.
Feminine energy is so important for women to align with their natural born essence, biology and rhythm, which is the space for stillness, reflection and understanding of who we are and who God asks us to be.
A JOURNEY FILLED WITH HEALING, DEEP SOUL HEALING
Her's more about my journey...
My life was filled with attracting bullies as a child. I finally had to meet the biggest bully, myself. What we see outside of us is always inside of us.
I was a very sensitive soul, stuffing feelings away as they were so intense. If you know Carl Jung's work then you know he is the father of psychology and teacher of what he calls the 'empathic' child.
These children are sensitive souls and feel deeply including other people's emotions, which can be confusing what is actually yours and what isn't yours. At the beginning of my coaching career, I remember a child saying to me, why do I feel mommy's anxiety when I sleep in the bunk bed above her? These children are real, they get overwhelmed with emotions and the healing journey isn't just for themselves, it's also the parents who are under stress.
As a result of self bullying and fear to stand up to bully's I developed an identity of being the nice girl, afraid to stand up to anyone who had BIG emotions. This showed up in relationships, my family and in work, hiding from tough conversations.
I also began to understand I was self selecting to being a door mat, which was brought to my attention by someone in my own family. YES, the truth is always around us. I let everyone walk all over me.
I couldn't figure out why I would teach 1000's of people and be exhausted and my nervous system would be fried. This is a sign of deep empathic ability, absorbing people's problems and emotions. Maybe this is you?
HEALING BEGAN..
In mid-life, my path changed as I was led to unconscious mind tools that healed trauma like a miracle. I felt alive and powerful and I was trained as a Coach, using the tools with others.
A NEW CHAPTER UNFOLDED...
After my mother passed away in 2021, a another chapter unfolded. My pride wouldn't let me slow down and eventually operating a business that was misaligned with my soul's growth and path, I thought I needed more growth, masculine energy resources. I made huge misaligned choices and spent a lot of money that led me to the SAME result.
I needed soul healing and soul understanding, understanding. This only comes in pausing life. My body was exhausted. My nervous system was fried, once again.
This is where I met God in Spain, a deep initiation back into trusting and self love, boundaries and realizing I couldn't handle TONS of people coming at me, I needed space to heal.
God is mysterious. It's not like you can logically 'plan' to have your life saved by God. God is always around us, watching us and that means even things we think are 'good', which can include hidden shadows of anger, lack of empathy, gas lighting, narcissistic tendencies and where we start playing the role of god, thinking we know it all and controlling others which I learned is on the 'ungodly' list. I had ALL the above until I began to heal and come into my heart and understanding of God.
GOD DESIGNED YOU FOR A GIFT , one that supports WHO you are, WHO God signed you up to be...
That includes supporting your nervous system.
I was STUCK in power traps EVERYWHERE in my life (only course corrected through boundaries and following the principles of a Godly life) . After the miracle with God, I was led to more stillness, and deep pruning and removing, understanding how important it is to have other 'god' driven seekers around me. It was a season I'll never forget.
God wants us to love each other AND realize you can't love anyone until you look at yourself. It's time to stop taking over God's job, controlling others, and start letting others find themselves and God.
God loves you and God doesn't support us to stay in our shadow, which is why people have experiences, to finally meet their potential and meet their addictions even to people, places and things.
God wants everyone to know you have a GIFT to give the world, your presence and the unique experience you signed up for so you can fully come into a relationship with God.
The universe is God. Quantum physics is challenging old science. Will you choose to stay stuck in anger, resentment, letting your body show you the pain or meeting the fullness of God, forgiving, healing and finally realizing God loves you and knows what you were designed for. Can you be courageous enough to listen, to love more deeply and to look at your shadow, what isn't God? This is where it begins.
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Are you ready to get closer to your faith? Closer to understanding the Divine Design that God is inviting you to discover. Remember it's a journey!
Client Testimonials
"Cynthia has this incredible ability to deliver me truth when I need it and it's always with love and compassion. God knows your mistakes take you to learn differently and that all mistakes were meant to be forgiven. Her journey with God has taught me about how far away I was from God. She saved me so much time and frustration of repeating old cycles over and over. I didn't understand how unconscious I was to what was really happening. I had so many people pulling on my energy, I was a sensitive soul who struggled with boundaries, and I couldn't say no and that led me into losing my power. This was about reclaiming sovereignty."
